Whew well this has been a crazy weekend. I think I have experienced every emotion known to man over the last few days LOL. One of my main events was my baby kittens. Six weeks ago I helped my kitty give birth to 5 tiny, tiny lil kittens. They looked like small mice which in all honesty is not the cutest thing in the world, but I fell in love with them anyway. One baby died at birth, but the other four survived growing bigger and stronger every day. Momma Kitty is so sweet. I have never known a cat to bring their babies close to humans right after birth, instead they usually try to hide them in the oddest of places to keep them out of harm's way. What does momma do? Two days after they were born, late one night, she grasp each tiny baby in her mouth dragging them all one-by-one up and under my covers in my bed. We fought for about 2 hours of her bringing them up, and me taking them down to the comfy box I built for her and her kittens. Finally....Momma won LOL. The babies have stayed nestled in my bed, sleeping every night with me since they were two days old. I'm sure you can imagine how much deep sleep I got in those first few weeks.....About 7 hours in a two week period LOL. It was like being a new mother my own self. I wouldn't trade this experience for the world. The loss of sleep to gain that experience will forever reign worthwhile in all my days to come.
As a child I had many cats...Barn Cats! Ugh, they are not very friendly for their own reasons of trying to stay safe. They do not make the best pets in the world. They also do not have long life spans. Many a Saturday morning my mother would wake me up to say there was another cat that was killed on the white rock road next to our property. That is the way of country living. Natural Selection sure seems to come into play for all the wild things of the world. Always sad and tragic, but it is the way and circle of life.
I don't want to go into details, but Momma Kitty was part of a two-fold "Do Over" for me, for my past. Momma came to me as a wee lil kitten herself covered in flees, and about to perish from being homeless, food-less and attacked by a massive flea infestation. It came to me one day that she was part of that "Do Over" that God lets us have sometimes. Sometimes God knows that one thing will be the very thing that sets everything else into perspective as well as providing much needed healing. I fell madly in love with her, she is my baby!! Like I said she was a very tiny cat so we didn't think she was ready to be spayed yet. Ummmmm, ooops, yeah we have a pregnancy with little baby kittens on the way in 65 days LOL. Oh well, worse things have and will happen than a litter of kittens at an inconvenient time. So the second part to my "Do Over" was the kittens! It hit me like a brick one day. I bawled my eyes out for hours over how God gently and graciously allowed me to have one thing from my childhood be made right, be turned good. So people were seeing me as this lady with lots of wild kittens running a muck. I knew myself to be the lady that was healing and moving forwards in massive ways! Lots of negative things have dropped away by the wayside, and a new light shines into the pupils of my eyes these days.
Many days and nights were spent just loving these babies in all the ways I could give love, kindness, tenderness and care. Weeks pass by until the kittens turn six weeks old. "OMG I am not ready for this! OMG I can't let them go! I am too attached now!", went spinning through my mind over and over again. Really what my problem was.....I didn't want to feel that pain of loss. I had spent so much time ensuring that painful situations would not lay themselves at my doorstep that I was not prepared for this! Tears would well up in my lil eyeballs, and I would focus on the future of my heart being sad of never seeing them again. Finally I gave up! I no longer tried to control whether or not I would feel pain, but instead I simply asked God to help me get through this. I asked God to allow me to feel the pain and work through it maturely and in a healthy way. I also asked that I feel the Joy that I am giving these new cat parents. I was giving the Gift of Love!
One kitten went to a good friend of mine whose cat had grown old and died recently. She was so excited it was like a kid at Christmas. She was waiting outside on the step for this little boy's arrival. I could see that she was Happy, and I knew that I had helped fill a void that only the love of a pet can fill. The second kitten went to a family with two small girls. I loved it! The mom and dad didn't tell the girls why they were at my house. We opened my bedroom door, and as they walked in the girls screamed running over to play with each baby kitten. They chose the newest member of their family, and set out for PetSmart to buy up all the cat products LOL. The third kitten went to a good friend who I found a dog for about a year and a half ago, but ended up finding his missing owners a week later. My friend had to return the dog. I knew he was disappointed, but I had a feeling the perfect friend would make its way into their life when the time was right. Funny thing is the third cat IS perfect for my friend, Absolutely Perfect LOL! I guess you are saying to yourself, "Who, oh who, took the fourth cat?". Yeahhhhh.....who would you guess? If you know me it would take you about three seconds to answer that question. ME!!! Hey like I said the kittens were part two of a two-fold "Do Over". The fourth kitten looks exactly like Momma Kitty. I call her "Mini Me" from the Austin Powers movies LOL. She is the runt, and is super sweet! Oh you should know one important thing about me....I will ALWAYS pick and side with all Underdogs in the world!!!
I feel like I have an animal menagerie going on in my home, but you know I wouldn't have it any other way! I am a glutton for punishment when it comes to adopting animals that are homeless or abused. I won't say they are the most well behaved animals, LOL, but they are none-the-less now Happy, Healthy and Safe!! Isn't that all we as humans want to be anyway? Happy-Healthy-Safe.....Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. So to sum up everything. I was an excellent midwife during birth tying off each umbilical cord and cutting them for exhausted momma cat. I was a fantastic cat grandma who provided loads of love and care. To top it all off, I managed to make a few people's life a little better and brighter with a cuddly kitten, a new Friend. I gave them the Gift of Love ..... :-D~
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